How Do You Respond to Jesus?

Then Mary took a jar of costly perfume made from essence of nard, and anointed Jesus’ feet with it and wiped them with her hair. And the house was filled with fragrance.

Gospel According to John

If you were to ask a room full of Christians to define worship or to describe what it should look like, you’d likely hear a variety of answers and opinions. People have pretty strong ideas about the subject.  If you’ve been attending church or reading the Bible for any length of time then I suspect you may even have a few favorite passages that portray or describe worship in some way. Miriam and Moses leading the people in song after being delivered from the Egyptians in Exodus 15; Isaiah chapter 6 and the prophet’s cry from God’s throne room, “woe is me! for I am undone!“; Jesus and the theologically astute Samaritan woman in John chapter 4 discussing, among other things, the topic of worship; or John’s vision of heaven in the book of Revelation, “holy, holy, holy is the Lord God, the Almighty, Who was and Who is and Who is to come!”

As a worship pastor I enjoy digging into these types of passages because I’m convinced that there’s always more to learn and glean about the art and practice of worshiping God, and helping others to do the same. I suspect that part of the reason for the array of perspectives and opinions about worship is that even though it’s simple, it’s also interactive, creative, intentionally diverse, deeply moving and can be extremely profound. One of the more intriguing worship-related passages is the account of a woman who anoints Jesus with oil. All four of the gospels have some variation of this story, which kind of makes me think we should sit up and take particular notice. Here we’ll be looking specifically at the version found in chapter 12 of John’s gospel.  

John places this event in Bethany, the village where Mary, Martha and Lazarus lived, which is located in what we know today as the West Bank, on the eastern slope of the Mt. of Olives just outside Jerusalem.  According to John the woman who anoints Jesus’ feet is Mary. We see her on three different occasions in the gospels and every time, regardless of the circumstances, she is at the feet of Jesus. First as a disciple, sitting among the other disciples and learning from Jesus (make note of that… she wasn’t daydreaming or swooning here, she was in training as a student alongside the men, which was unheard of in her day and time; and tragically in some circles still disapproved of in ours. Jesus unapologetically affirms women in roles and positions that culture and society frequently forbid them to occupy. Jesus is a liberator and as such treats women as equal to men, restoring God’s original intent and design).  The second occasion of Mary at the feet of Jesus is following the death of her brother Lazarus, in anguish that Jesus didn’t get there in time to save him. She doesn’t quite get it yet. Then the third time is after Lazarus is raised from the dead in the passage we’re looking at here. As we’ll see, after witnessing Jesus raise her brother from the grave, she finally connects the dots – and probably has a better understanding of Jesus’ identity and his purpose than any of the other disciples do at this point. And this realization causes her to actively respond with passionate, extravagant devotion. Before we take a closer look at Mary, let’s zoom out a bit and see who the other characters are and what they’re up to, and place the anointing of Jesus in its context within the narrative. Along the way, I want to challenge you to find yourself in this story. Ask yourself how do I respond to Jesus?

Chapter 11 of John presents to us the account of Lazarus’ death and his subsequent raising from the dead by Jesus.  We won’t delve into that part of the story, but you can read it here if you’d like. Suffice it to say that this episode serves as a pivot-point and catalyst for the remainder of John’s gospel account. Starting in verse 45 of chapter 11 we’re told that there are some Jews and that many of them “believed in him” following this miraculous event. But we’re told that others “went to the Pharisees and told them what Jesus had done”.  So right away we see some typical responses to Jesus…some people believe, and others are, for whatever reason, ambivalent at best, and possibly antagonistic. The text presents the crowd as a nameless, faceless group and no doubt their motives and responses varied. 

If you’re familiar at all with the gospels, then you know that for the most part the Jewish religious leaders were wary of Jesus. And at times they were outright angry with him. Why? Was he threatening their power and clout? Were they concerned he would upset the proverbial applecart politically speaking? Are they worried about the welfare of the people they are tasked with overseeing? A combination of factors is likely and again, dependent on the individual. It helps to remember that the Jews at this point in their history are colonized and under Roman rule and occupation. Their understandable concern, which we read in the text around verse 48, is that if Jesus continues to perform such amazing miracles and more people see him as their king, then the Romans will forcibly act against them. “What are we going to do?” they asked each other. “For this man certainly does miracles. If we let him alone the whole nation will follow him—and then the Roman army will come and kill us and take over the Jewish government.” This has happened to them before. Exile and occupation are burned into their national consciousness. They lost the original temple, Solomon’s temple, in 586 BCE when it was destroyed by the Babylonians. The temple in Jesus’ day was the second (much smaller and less extravagant) temple, completed around 516 BCE after the Persian king allows them to return home and rebuild (see Ezra-Nehemiah). To their way of thinking it’s where God dwells and it’s where and how they can worship. It’s also part of their national identity. They seem to have lost hope in God’s promises, are attempting to maintain the status quo, want to retain what little power they have left, and are desperate to avoid conflict with the Roman government. Once they learn of the miracle of Lazarus being raised from the dead, they’ve had enough, and they convene to actively begin to discuss and plot Jesus’ death.  “And one of them, Caiaphas, who was High Priest that year, said, “…let this one man die for the people—why should the whole nation perish?”  Jewish tradition held that the office of High Priest included the gift of prophecy, making Caiaphas’ statement, considering his ignorance of what was really happening, even more ironic. Word gets around and chapter 11 closes with the Jews preparing for the coming Passover amid lots of rumor and speculation about whether Jesus will show up in Jerusalem and what will happen next. 

As we transition into chapter 12 the scene narrows to a home in the city of Bethany where a dinner is being given in Jesus’ honor.  The text states that it is six days before the Passover. This meal is taking place the evening before Jesus enters Jerusalem on what we now refer to as Palm Sunday. We don’t know how many people are there, but we are told that Martha is serving, Lazarus is present and reclining at the table and Judas Iscariot is also there. And then of course there’s Mary. Mary the disciple of Jesus. Mary the friend of Jesus. Mary the servant. Mary the student. Mary the worshiper.

 Mary took a jar of costly perfume made from essence of nard, and anointed Jesus’ feet with it and wiped them with her hair. And the house was filled with fragrance

Read that verse again and linger over it for a moment. This is an intimate, self-less act and extravagant gift of service and worship. Foot-washings weren’t uncommon in their culture, though would have been performed by the lowliest of slaves; but washing with fragrant oil was uncommon. Ok so two questions. What is nard? Why mention that her act of worship was fragrant? For one, it’s reminiscent of the love poem Song of Solomon. The Song references fragrance a lot, and the Hebrew word equivalent to the word translated here as nard is found no where else in the Old Testament except in the Song of Solomon. We know also that the temple contained an altar of incense, and aromatic spices and other fragrant sources were integral to Jewish worship practices. Generally, with the exception of Song of Solomon, fragrance in the Old Testament is associated with death and sacrifice. So with references in our verse to fragrance and the use of nard, we see two things being alluded to here: death/sacrifice and love/intimacy.

The ointment Mary offered was expensive, equivalent to an average worker’s annual income. It was pure. It was genuine. It was not a cheap imitation. And it was of the variety used in burials. Her hair was unbound, again indicating both intimacy and grief. The particular Greek verb used for “wiping” here is used by John in only one other verse – in chapter 13 when he describes Jesus’ act of washing and wiping the disciples’ feet. John seems to be pointing out that Mary is, without being asked or instructed, demonstrating the sort of humble service that Jesus will soon explicitly teach his other disciples in how they are to care for and serve one another. This is just one of several elements in this passage that foreshadow the Last Supper scene in the next chapter. 

Mary doesn’t say anything that we know of, and I think perhaps it’s because she is so thoroughly focused on Jesus. It’s easy to imagine though that she is crying and vocalizing her love and devotion, with no apparent concern for what the others might be thinking or saying about her as they look on. What we do hear is a brief exchange between Jesus and Judas. 

 But Judas Iscariot, one of his disciples — the one who would betray him — said, "That perfume was worth a fortune. It should have been sold and the money given to the poor." Not that he cared for the poor, but he was in charge of the disciples’ funds and often dipped into them for his own use!

Judas’ question seems valid. Right? I mean, what’s wrong with caring for the poor? Is Mary being negligent and wasteful?  Let’s be clear, the gospel message is very much about caring for the poor and marginalized, Jesus was all about that. He came to love and serve and free the lost, the poor, the forgotten.  The problem here is that Judas (officially a disciple and leader!) wasn’t concerned about anyone but himself. Side note: this type of behavior continues to plague the Church to this day. Don’t blindly follow someone just because they hold a position as pastor, deacon, elder, teacher, etc. You follow Jesus, not men. Which is precisely what we see Mary doing. And Jesus defends both her character and her actions. Not only that but he reveals a particular purpose behind this specific act of worship, that she is preparing for his burial. What?! Remember when I said that Mary had connected the dots? She loved and trusted Jesus fiercely – and she had been paying attention. Jesus had been telling them what would happen, but they weren’t getting it. The Twelve don’t get it until sometime after the resurrection. But many of the women we read about stayed with Jesus throughout the upcoming ordeal, women were consistently the first to comprehend what was going on throughout his ministry, and women were the first to be commissioned by Jesus to preach the good news. The passage concludes by zooming back out a bit and letting the reader know that a crowd had discovered where Jesus was and had gathered there. And that they were also hoping to see Lazarus, because he had been raised form the dead. This solidifies the chief priests’ intentions and even expands it to include killing Lazarus! …”For on account of him (Lazarus) many of the Jews were going over to Jesus and believing in him.”

Whew! There is so much to be mined from this text! We started out by identifying it as one that might give us some insights about worship, which it certainly does! But as we saw it reveals so much more. From Mary’s example we learn that in responding to Jesus for who he is and what he does, worship… 

is lavish

is pure

is focused 

is courageous

is undeterred

is devoted

is humble

is sacrificial

is unashamed

submits to God’s will 

is pleasing to God

reflects Christ

is integral to discipleship

is relational

ministers to Jesus

sets an example for others

is beautiful and ‘fragrant’

may be socially unacceptable

may make other people angry or uncomfortable

may irritate self-important religious leaders

This list isn’t exhaustive. Are there any other observations you take away from the text? Earlier I had challenged you to find yourself in this story. Can you identify parts of yourself within the various characters and their actions and reactions?  Take some time to pray and record your thoughts in a journal or on your phone, whichever works best for you. Honest self-reflection can be haaaarrrd. But it’s important and with the Spirit’s help can move us forward and grow us in our relationship with God.

How do you respond to Jesus? 

Michelle Haywood Smith is a worship pastor; a student-scholar of Christian theology and the Bible at Portland Seminary; an artist and musician; a writer; a teacher; and a worshiper of Jesus. Feel free to comment and/or connect on social media!

I AM the Door: Reflections on the Gospel of John

            There are so many things I could comment on about John’s gospel that it’s hard to know where to start! I’ve long been intrigued by the way it opens, not with a narrative account of Jesus’ birth like Matthew and Luke; and not without preamble as in Mark’s gospel. John instead takes the time to introduce his readers to Jesus by directing them back to Genesis chapter 1… “in the beginning…”.  He states that Jesus (the Word) is God, which Jesus Himself also claimed throughout His ministry. These statements, as revealed in the gospels and in John in particular, are often lost on modern-day, non-Jewish readers, but to the readers and hearers in that day the intent and meaning behind Jesus’ claims would have been both crystal clear and shocking. His use of the phrase “I Am” was directly and deliberately correlated to God’s name for Himself as revealed in His conversation with Moses (Exodus 3:14), which the Jews would have immediately recognized. It’s pertinent to note that Jesus didn’t merely make these statements verbally, but He also communicated these truths by His actions. For instance, He stated, “I am the bread of life”, and also miraculously fed thousands of people. He claimed to be “the light of the world”, and healed a blind man, literally illuminating that man’s world!  

            I think one of the things I notice more now than I used to is the depth and character of Jesus’ personality. He’s not the dry, boring, humorless man that is so often depicted in movies and paintings; and even by many Christians I’ve encountered over the years, including myself at times. He overturned the status quo (and continues to do so), in much the same way he overturned tables in the temple. He cared very little about what was culturally and socially acceptable. He spoke to women and children, slaves and foreigners. He didn’t approach His conversations with people in a scripted fashion. Every encounter He had was uniquely tailored to that individual.  He asked lots of questions, not because He needed the information but because the other person needed to be drawn out or challenged in some way, yet always with the other person’s best interest in mind. One of my favorite passages is in chapter 8 where the Pharisees brought a woman to Him caught in the act of adultery (btw…How did they know when and where to find her?… Where was the man who was also committing adultery?… This “testing” of Jesus reeks of calculated, arrogant antagonism toward Jesus and indifference toward the woman.).  Jesus’ handling of the situation is brilliant, in that He upholds the validity of Old Testament law while at the same time demonstrating the New Testament mercy that He alone can provide.

            Another passage that stands out is Jesus’ encounter with Mary following the death of her brother, Lazarus (chapter 11).  I think people often believe that they’re not allowed to express to God when they are angry or upset about something, but here in this account, in verse 32, Mary blurts it out… “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died.”  She’s angry and confused, questioning Him for His apparent failure to arrive on time. She knows who He is and believes in both His goodness and His power, but in that gut-wrenching moment her faith is in conflict with her experience.  He of course responds with compassion. He weeps, I think, partly in loving empathy toward her in that moment in time, and partly for the brokenness of our fallen world that brought death, in all its forms, that we were never intended to experience. I appreciate the reminder that we can and should be genuine in our relationship with Him. That we can cry and doubt and ask Him questions and even express hurt or anger, and He responds with grace and mercy.  He also reminds us, as He did Mary, that “if you believe, you will see the glory of God” (v 40). This doesn’t mean that things will always get better immediately. They often don’t. But it does mean that we can trust Him completely, even in our waiting. Ultimately, Jesus responded by going to the cross on our behalf and offering permanent restoration and resurrection to us all.

“And there are also many other things which Jesus did, which if they were written in detail, I suppose that even the world itself would not contain the books that would be written.”

John 21:25, NASB

Michelle Haywood Smith is a Jesus follower, image bearer, ezer, worship leader, vocalist, acoustic guitar player, aspiring poet & songwriter, blogger, reader, perpetual learner, chocolate acquisition specialist;)….and also a daughter, sister, wife, mother & friend. 

Faith in the Midst of Uncertainty

Clarity…

For those of you who know me, you know that I like order. And planning. I like to know what the expectations are and how to get where I’m going. I like to be prepared for any and all contigencies that may arise. I like it when I feel confident. My organizational skills are off the charts. In a lot of contexts this is great, right!? In work? Check! In school? Check! In all that administrative/ministry/behind-the-scenes-stuff? Check! In my faith as a follower of Christ!? Um.. well… not necessarily.

The Lord has been teaching me a lot in recent months about clarity. I’ve been looking back over the course of my life and my journey with the Lord and have realized that very often my prayers have included a request for clarity…whether for myself, or as I have prayed for and with others. I have literally used that word, “Lord, please give clarity regarding…. “. It seems like a reasonable request, right? Wise, even. After all, if we have clarity we can plan, and organize, and “be prepared for any and all contingencies”. We have a decision to make, or something has happened, and we want to know what to do or how it will turn out. Sometimes clarity comes in our situations, I love it when that happens. But oftentimes it doesn’t. Perhaps that’s even the case more often than not. We’re unsure what the next moment will bring. We’re left wondering if we’ve made a right choice. Or maybe a decision we made previously doesn’t turn out well and then we’re angry because the Lord could have prevented it. He could have shown us what would happen and then we would have (presumably) made a different choice.

Of course, we should seek the Lord’s direction, and absolutely we need to be grounded in the truth of His word and engaged in loving community with other Christ-followers. But, when we place our faith in our own ability to see and understand clearly (a form of idolatry, btw), we’re needlessly setting ourselves up for fear and confusion during those times and situations when we can’t see and when we don’t know.  I had thought, in my requests for clarity over the years, that I was demonstrating my faith in the Lord. In some ways I still think I was… but in the past few years He’s been pressing me to go deeper. To trust Him more. To not suddenly worry when the path becomes obsure. To place my faith in Him. To believe in the goodness of His character, and not in my own ability to think or see clearly.

I no longer ask the Lord to give me clarity.  Jesus can provide it if He wills, but what I seek now is His presence. I don’t ask Him to erase my doubts, I ask for deeper faith in the midst of my doubts, and a more abiding, patient trust…

I think one of the reasons I find my calling and role as a worship leader so compelling is because I am personally moved and ministered to by the Lord through music and the arts. I always have been. I listen to tons of music and have many favorites. Hillsong Worship released a song last year titled New Wine, with a lyric line that says:so I yield to You and to Your careful hand, when I trust You I don’t need to understand....” That stung the first few times I heard it. But.. it’s becoming the posture of my heart, and I hope it’s yours too.

Michelle Haywood Smith is a Jesus follower, image bearer, ezer, worship leader, vocalist, acoustic guitar player, aspiring poet & songwriter, blogger, reader, perpetual learner, chocolate acquisition specialist;)….and also a daughter, sister, wife, mother & friend. 

Song Story: Love to Tell

Hey you guys! It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here! I’ve been taking some classes and also working on songwriting!! Which I am suuper excited about! I’ve added a Music page to the main menu, which I will use to gradually post videos of my original songs, but may also add some here individually along with the story behind the song.  As a worship leader, these will most likely be songs of praise and worship for the church to sing! I hope you enjoy them! And if you’re a worship leader and ever feel like one of these will work well with your congregation or Bible study group and/or etc., then please message me via my Contact page and I’m happy to send you the chord chart!

Acts 3:6-10-“But Peter said, “I do not possess silver and gold, but what I do have I give to you: In the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene—walk!” And seizing him by the right hand, he raised him up; and immediately his feet and his ankles were strengthened. With a leap he stood upright and began to walk; and he entered the temple with them, walking and leaping and praising God. And all the people saw him walking and praising God, and they were taking note of him as being the one who used to sit at the Beautiful Gate of the temple to beg alms, and they were filled with wonder and amazement at what had happened to him.”

A month or so ago at my church, we were finishing up the book of Acts and our lead pastor was talking about how we, as believers, all have stories of encounters with Jesus. Not just the recounting of how we came to a saving faith in Christ, but also all of the times the Lord has been and continues working and moving in our lives and on our behalf. juri-gianfrancesco-655957-unsplashThe tendency can be to think that only those people with really radical testimonies have anything worth sharing, but that just isn’t true! All of us who know Jesus have stories of His faithfulness. Of His patience and compassion. The way He comforts and pursues us. Of how He works in even the smallest of details. Of how He gets our attention or how He sometimes redirects our course. The stories are as endless and varied as his people!

I love the above account from the book of Acts. First, the disciples are willing to share Jesus…it starts there right?  This man is aware of his own need and is willing to hear and receive what they say, and he believes and is healed. Then his immediate response is to get up and boldly go about showing and telling others of his encounter with Jesus as he leaps and praises His name. Followed by the people who saw and knew him being filled with wonder and amazement! Maybe we haven’t received a dramatic physical healing like this man, but we are no less broken apart from Jesus and our stories are no less remarkable! And you never know who might need to hear yours! May we be filled with renewed excitement over the Lord’s work in our lives and be bold about sharing our Jesus stories! And may we be quick to offer up praise to the One whose love for us is relentless.

 

Michelle Haywood Smith is a Jesus follower, image bearer, ezer, worship leader, vocalist, acoustic guitar player, aspiring poet & songwriter, blogger, reader, perpetual learner, chocolate acquisition specialist;)….and also a daughter, sister, wife, mother & friend. 

 

 

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